February not so sweet, old friends, healing, finding time for peace.

This has not been a time of sweet nothings but a rather stressful month.  I would love to just curl up with a book but there always seems a lot to do.   I have had a frustrating winter, my partner has been home and  worried about work.   He has  taken some notice of the kitchen and done the dishes.

My friend who lives in a more northerly part of the GTA, sends me emails about her aged mother in law.    This lady still lives on her own but has some day help and is now getting more confused.   It is giving me friend anxiety about aging.   I told her that things will be different for her as she has always had to be responsible and she will remain the same when she is that age.    Her Mother in law has had her son my friend's husband to look after her and he is at her beck and call.   He is not young.   They seem to think she can stay in her home but really she need some one to be their 24/7.   Life was much more easier when people lived with their aging parents.  My friend says she doesn't get along with her.    I do hope one if not all of my children think enough of me to let me be near enough to them when I am very old.   Who knows?

I had lunch with two of my oldest friends.  We talked a long tine and it was nice to be in their company.   One is also looking after her aged parents and the other has had to deal with her parents having Alzheimer's.   I lost my parents one when I was thirty and the other when I was almost 43 years old.   I would have loved to have had my Father around longer, he died first.   The two talked with the one talking about her Mother's last years with her.  I am sure it was a healing for her .

I have felt my life in somewhat of an upheaval lately and I would just like to have some peace of mind for a change.   Nothing extra ordinary just time to be quiet.  I crave quiet and peace.   I had hoped to start my writing project but haven't been able to concentrate.   I need a weekend away at one of my two favourite places to go.    That isn't possible at the moment so I might just have to start writing and due more research as I go along.   There is always a way forward if you are determined to get something done.

I am contemplating getting rid of my living room furniture as I am tired of it.   I can't replace it at the moment.   I have enough with sofas in the basement to put that upstairs for now.  Just a though.